to everything there is a season.

so, it looks like i'll be staying for another semester.

i've been praying lately about going to the jerusalem campus for years. YEARS. the time draws nearer that it'd be nice if i had an answer if someone asked me if i'm to go. i believe i already have my answer. the Lord has been closing doors. blessed be the name of the Lord, really. answer: no.

i have a peace about not being able to go. a peace that a lot of people would find bizarre. what is more amazing is the ministry opportunities that are coming around the bend [yes, cliche statement]. it looks like He gives and He takes away. doors are closed, others are opened. every now and then a window. i am competely content with not going.

this could only mean that there is a greater work to be done in california. temecula. calvary chapel bible college. inland valley victory church. the Spirit of God is everywhere and He will lead me as long as i allow Him.


in other news:

i can't wait for autumn to make it's way to the plate. the air is easier to breathe then. the ocean is warmer thanks to our good friend summer. the contrasting colors are inspiring.

but for now, we have summer.
she is beautiful.
but not quite the one for me.
my leah to my rachel.


yet, to everything there's a season.

the fact of the matter.

"things change. and friends leave. and life doesn’t stop for anybody."
-charlie

not too long ago, i had a very unnecessary emotional breakdown. i guess it was the summation of all my fleshly frustration that i compartmentalized in the secluded part of my brain. what i should have taken to the Lord in prayer, i let the quiet things put themselves where they wanted to go. well, this is what i found out:

the world does not stop turning for anyone. may i be the first to admit that without God, i am a very selfish person. to say that was pretty difficult. if there's one thing i know about being selfish, i notice other people are being selfish. see, now this is interesting. i have a weird desire to please everyone all the time. and if any one person shows a hint of frustration, anger, or sadness, i immediate think it's my fault. what a weird contradiction.

well, suck it up, faith.

thank YOU for being a patient, very unselfish friend.
we balance each other out.